Youre not in Sagara anymore!!! Could that be an understatement? As the months have found me in new territory delving further into the aspects of tests and initiations. I have found myself amidst the busy and bustling life of New Yorkers. Coming from the serene and contemplative consciousness of the east into the everyday hustle and bustle of subways, unheard of noises, and people with serious yet impersonal style of interacting with one another. (talk about a culture shock) It appears that not smiling and not looking one another in the eye is the way to survive in this town especially on the subways. My own insight into the subways is that having encountered many annoying solar plexus upsets after leaving the subway. It came to me that I was actually delving into the Astral world of Maya or in better terms the energies of peoples fears, doubts, pride, lust, greed and insecurities. As for me it is part of the nature of the Bodhisattva to continue to be compassionate and to understand that amidst this is the inner need in all of us to want happiness and forgo suffering. New Yorkers were all out to see the wonderful display of Cristos Gates, beautiful saffron cloth banners in all of Central Park, I felt a wonderful feeling of unity while walking through them and a meditative way of looking at how nature could be changed with the flow of the these beautiful banners amidst the bustle of the city. It was a peaceful and beautiful experience to see New Yorkers partake in this awareness. It slowly changes my perspective of the coldness that is in the faces of these New Yorkers. Ah, maybe I have some compassion setting in. Currently the biggest tests that have come in to my life is that of trying to integrate a part of myself to be a meaningful and productive servant to those I come in contact on a daily basis. As a substitute Montessori teacher, also an Administrative Assistant, a Spanish Teacher (it would appear that my past embodiments have caught up with me) in Brooklyn, New York, traveling on those lovely subways for 45 minutes each way every day to where I find myself situated with personnel that yet realize I am there to help and not to be in opposition to them and their ideas. Well, maybe that can be one of my tests to overcome and see them with compassion, I believe it is. As my thoughts and consciousness changes so will theirs I hope. If not I can say that I gave it my best. In regards to this it is hard for my fellow co-workers that they have been told that the building, the YWCA, will be renovating apartments and the school is being evicted, so make room for economic improvements and financial advancement. This concern can change ones attitude, and bring about competitiveness. It will close in one year. As I bring compassion and kindness to the situation I understand not to take it personally. (One test high on my list) I understand their plight. The children are always so innocent and precious they just want to learn how to get along in this world. Imagine coming from such a pure state, and then having to come here and learn how to cope with all this. Children are pure love, and all they want to do is give it to you. Isnt this why so many people just love to be near young babies. Oh, some good things do happen on the subways, if you can keep an open mind, I saw a wonderful Mexican family interaction, it was great so loving with the two children and the parents, it was like they were smiling and happy and not concerned with being impersonal. (Also, I get to catch up on my spiritual reading) I seem to be in this place in time for more life lessons coming from the eastern to the west and one of the best places to be is New York where you can find the diversity of every culture and country. My only aspiration is that amongst it all I will find the inner strength to share my compassion with them as I learn and experience their lives also. If you can make it in New York you can make it anywhere! Mmm is that so I still have to hurdle the humidity, cold, subways, and Impersonal personalities, but I AM enjoying it for I know I am one step closer to my goal and that initiation turns into a victory wonNamastae!! http://www.missionsaintgermain.com |
